church (His People Church Grahamstown) has been corporately fasting and praying. The focus is on preparing for our annual mission to Rhodes University which happens during their orientation week. I totes (#hipster) believe that fasting is something all Christians should do (here’s why), I believe that it is very New Testament but I am bad at it! Here are my problems:
1. Indecisive I can never settle on what I’m actually going to give up. During fasting days my fast changes in composition, duration, and most of the time I just give up altogether!
2. Motive I am constantly questioning my motives. Are you sure you are not being
licentious legalistic about this? If you’re honest, this is a weight loss thing, isn’t it?!
3. Less time spent with God, more time spent being anxious about whether I’m doing it right! This is probably my biggest issue! Fasting is a spiritual discipline but I struggle to bring the focus to God. I feel a little bit like a pretender when I open my Bible over lunch instead of making my way to the dining hall. It feels forced!
4. Guilty when I do, guilty when I don’t. Sigh. Need I say more?
I know fasting is important and I want to get it right. For now, I’m on a learning curve. I’d love to hear from you, any thoughts?